Dealing With Minor Discomforts

While continuing on with the pregnancy I went through varieties of things, being sick all the time wasn't really my kind of thing. I had backaches, stomach issues and I had so much pain every where in my body. The worst thing about it was gaining a lot of weight and breaking out during all of it. To me it was just too much pressure and stress to even think about, I was just so emotional with everything. I cried every night, threw-up a lot in the daytime, and also late at night. Things were just getting worse and worse every single day, it just became my worst nightmare having to deal with all these sicknesses. All I ever thought about was everything to just go away and let me be, still till today I worry about my weight a lot because of how I look it was just so terrifying and stressful having to go through all these process all for my soon to be baby boy. I'm not going to lie it's hard going through all of these steps to receive a healthy baby. I never complained about anything until now it's just so tiring and a lot of work to do when dealing with pregnancy. You have to worry about what you eat, go for 20 minute walks, and also go to all my appointments every two weeks. I gained 27.5 pounds in 6 months and maybe more to come in my next 2 months (Stressed about it). It was a pain in the butt, I would advise you to make good choices and talk to your doctor about what you can do to help you stay on track and not worry about being pregnant.

Worries in the beggining of pregnancy

I always thought of my life being very natural and easy, at that time I never thought of having a baby I just never let the thought come to me as well. I just ignored it out my teenage life. I realized now I would've done something by using protection and making smart choices. My worries were what would I do now? give up and run from my mistakes or to "wake up" and get it through my head that it was all happening. My goals were to keep moving forward and have no regrets. By doing that I would have to understand that theirs another living human growing inside of me and that I should really start doing something about it. Wheather to start attending school and graduating or let everything go to waist. It really took a long time for me to figure out things because at that time I was smoking, drinking and partying 24/7 with friends and cousins everywhere I never worried about what I should do since now that I'm pregnant. I was so fed up with a lot of things and confused about what to do because I wasn't even ready to have a baby to be apart of my life. After thinking very hard all about these things I had talked to my mom about being a mother and having to have an actual child in my hands. She had told me that she would help me through the whole process and that when the baby is born she would help me take care of him. At that moment I was just so happy because I had my moms support and she will stand by me through my whole pregnancy.

Your Pregnancy & Newborn Journey

I've been reading this book about "Pregnancy Newborn Journey's". This book really spoke lout to me as a teenage mom, it really did relate to me as a young mother. It talked about how "you should stick around for high school even if your pregnant always remember never give up." To me this quote really meant a lot because at the time I found out that I was pregnant and so it just jumped out to me. For instance now i had more responsibilities as a teenage mother. Though out this process the though that ran through my head were to stay home and not worry about school. As I'm confused something really jumped out to me when I went home and discussed things with my boyfriend and just to work everything out. It wasn't about me or him anymore we had something more important to worry about. A living human being inside of me! I felt like if I was to drop out during my pregnancy I would've been done for because giving up school meant giving up everything I ever worked so hard for, and I wasn't going to let anything get in my way. My plans were to keep the baby and keep pushing my self to go harder in school. The highlight of high school is being able to look at your friends and say, "Gosh, we did it. We did it together." To me I'm happy I stayed in high school even if I'm pregnant all i needed to do was finish school then go to college and find me the greatest career I could ever find.

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This is picture is my family at our small reunion in june 2009. they had came down from Hawaii to visit all of us kids and expecially my dad who had a stroke on august 29, 2008. Things were very unhappy that day because we kids never knew what would happen afterwards. Everyone just freaked when they found out about what had happened to my father. It was very supporting and comforting to have my family come down from Hawaii and guide us kids including my mom and dad. They came down as soon as they heard about the insident. I think that it was a great summer even though nothing but "sadness" in everyones heart and soul, but i prayed and hopedeverything would go back to the way they were after my dad gets better. Four months later my dad gets removed from the hospital and sent to a rehability center where they helped him get back into figure and take care of him for a while before he comes home. Everyone were so kid to us and they just kept our spirits and hopes up knowing that everythings going to be okay. One month later my dad got to come home and at last our family was back to normal and started a new fresh start and we just all thanked "GOD" for everything he has done to help my dad out and for giving us his"Family" the strength to live each day with positive hopes and good thoughts that everything happens for a reason and that at the end things will turn out just great. I love my family always they mean the world to me.